You've heard the old adage,
If at first you don't succeed... try, try again.
As you know, for a while, I was following Trim Healthy Mama and was losing fabulously. Then a little bit of lax here, a little bit of lax there and boom. I'm back at my starting weight and my starting point all over again. You would think I would learn by my lifetime struggles of ups and downs on my weight, but I suppose this is a part of learning. Sadly, it has taken me 40 years of learning.
But... we aren't going to focus on what I've not done, and focus on what is happening!
Friday night, I had one of those 'revelation' moments. I finally owned up to myself for what has happened, what I've let creep back up on me. My weight is up and my health is down.
I've known it for a while, but sometimes you just push things out of your mind and out of your mind til you just have to shake yourself and say, "Wake up! Do you SEE what's happening here? Stop killing yourself with food! Start caring for yourself again!"
I was at a function with a few of my children and honestly I wanted to hide or leave before it even started. I was ashamed of my size and how I looked. Sigh.
I felt a tinge of panic and then the revelation hit.
I looked at myself in a very real way for the first time in a long time.
Now, true and normal to Chas fashion, I could have done a couple of things.
I could have just decided to 'wait til Monday'...
I could have bought a dozen doughnuts and eaten several of them myself, or more.
I could have decided to become a recluse again and holed up in my house and refused to leave except for church.
None of those things happened.
What DID happen was, I prayed and God gave me the strength to start.
To start again.
I gathered all my THM gear, I pulled out my blender and made a spot for it on the counter. I made up the singing canary (still my fave) and pulled out my books.
I've done it before.
With the Lord's help, I can do it again.
I've got a family who needs Mom. I've got a life that needs living.
I've got a goal, and I'm ready to go forward... again.
Friend, if you are in my shoes and are struggling with weight loss... don't let those negative thoughts dictate your decisions.
We can often be our WORST enemy.
You have failed so many times.
You don't want to make a fool of yourself!
You can't do it.
Stop those thoughts and replace them with...
Every day is brand new, I can do this.
The LORD is my strength!
Every step forward is NOT a step backwards!
I am NOT a failure! I am an overcomer!
My Lord makes me strong!
Don't let others or yourself decide that it's not worth trying again!
We can try again and try again as many times as it takes.
Start today. Start now.
Maybe you have another type of need. Something you need to start doing... maybe something you need to stop. It's never too late. It's never too far.
Stop, start, give it to The Lord!
He is there to help! He is there to give us strength for the journey!
Be encouraged and fight hard!
Your life is worth it!